Random thoughts and happenings.

chloekiyoko: This was my mom right now. Me ERRYDAY

Wed, 08 Feb 2012 22:10:11 -0500

This was my mom right now.

Me ERRYDAY

brass-attack: wow… I love this Contrabass Bone. Made with a...

Mon, 06 Feb 2012 00:39:00 -0500

wow…

I love this Contrabass Bone. Made with a bass bone slide and a Baritone body for the bell section, it has three valves hand made by Robb Stewart. I believe this was done in the late 70’s. One day i’m gonna make stuff like this!

My Hn White 1936 Alto Horn. Was doing some research and...

Mon, 06 Feb 2012 00:07:00 -0500

My Hn White 1936 Alto Horn.

Was doing some research and discovered that this particular Horn of mine is actually a pretty rare bird! This particular horn was produced from 1936 up until the start of WWII. Just wanted to share a little bit of my collection with you people.

I’ll post a video in the next few days of me attempting to play it. I’m a Tuba player by profession, but it doesn’t mean I can’t try right?

Mediocrity.

Sun, 05 Feb 2012 03:24:06 -0500

Today was definitely a life examining event. Played bagpipes at a funeral service, and then followed that up by watching “a tribute It Ryan Dunn”. It made me think: if I were gone tomorrow, would I be happy with what I’ve done?

Yes and no.

I’ve accomplished a lot in my short time here. I’ve made a name for myself in Sacramento as a tuba player and musician that wont turn down the chance to get my name out there. But what I’m not happy about, is that for the hard work I’ve done, I really haven’t done as much as I would like. For some reason I have allowed myself to thrive on mediocrity, only doing just enough to get by. That’s a terrible way to do things. I’m going to be getting a baritone this week in the hopes to improve my musicality, and range on tuba. But instead of just playing it in a community band like I originally figured I would, I’m going to actually strive for a goal. I’m going to master something dammit.

I also need to start doing music FOR ME. I’ve always followed other’s intentions for my abilities. No more. I will never be happy with my own abilities if I allow myself to not meet my OWN expectations!

And finally, I can’t be happy with myself, when I have allowed my own family to hold me back. When I play music, I do it for my family, to bring them together and listen to what my brother and I have put together. But when its just me, nobody seems to truly care. Its this act, of pushing me off to the side, that has made me push aside my own drive.

Tomorrow is a new day. A day that will start a period in my life in which I do things for myself. So That when my time comes, I can truly be proud of myself and not think “I could’ve done it better”.

“Every day is one day closer to the end of our pilgrimage. Some journeys are long, some are short. We will only know it is over when we get there.”

chloekiyoko: His facial hair made the movie. #epicstache

Wed, 01 Feb 2012 00:41:13 -0500

chloekiyoko:

His facial hair made the movie.

#epicstache

fuckyeahbandbuffalo: [Top Text: “gurgly tone, empties spit...

Mon, 30 Jan 2012 22:08:01 -0500

fuckyeahbandbuffalo:

[Top Text: “gurgly tone, empties spit valve, nothing comes out…”

Bottom Text: “shit it’s me.”]

fuckyeahbandbuffalo: “Blastissimo” is what happens when we see...

Mon, 30 Jan 2012 22:07:44 -0500

fuckyeahbandbuffalo:

“Blastissimo” is what happens when we see the occasional “ffff” in our music. Our section leader just likes to play loudly.

Photo

Mon, 30 Jan 2012 22:06:05 -0500

You know it

Mon, 30 Jan 2012 22:04:30 -0500

You know it

Thoughts

Mon, 30 Jan 2012 17:14:08 -0500

So I’m sitting at the optometrist’s office and figured “hey! Before I go blind ill do some writing!” So here I am, just waiting for the world around me to fuzz out of my vision. Where letters will become blobs of black and definitive lines blend together like a tacky sweater on a middle aged man running a children’s show.

But I digress,
I’ve got some big stuff coming up! Life willing as always. I got back in touch with like, the most amazing person ever, and it seems a change of scenery might be in store, along with… a job?! Shhh you didn’t here that from me. But ill keep ya’s posted ;D

bwaha!

Sun, 20 Nov 2011 23:40:58 -0500

bwaha!

breakcom: REBLOG if you want a stack of Bill Murray dolla...

Sun, 20 Nov 2011 23:39:30 -0500

breakcom:

REBLOG if you want a stack of Bill Murray dolla billz.

I mean… it’s true…

Sat, 08 Oct 2011 00:02:06 -0400

I mean… it’s true…

chloekiyoko: I sing this song almost every day…

Sat, 08 Oct 2011 00:01:42 -0400

chloekiyoko:

I sing this song almost every day…

Standard of Truth

Fri, 07 Oct 2011 05:23:00 -0400

So the past hour or so has been taken up by a debate between a girl and I on the subject of religion. I believe it’s one of the best debates I’ve had in a long time. It started off with some normal conversation and evolved quickly into something else. So my responses are labeled “Me”, and her’s are labeled “NM” (not mine).

NM- Yeah kinda. But honestly I don’t know where i’m at with spiritual stuff anyways

Me- what do you mean exactly?

NM- well I consider myself Christian but being christian but being christian means living in His will. Im not doing that, but a lot of people that re christian aren’t, mines just a little more obvious now

Me- Ah I see, i’m not really religious, but I personally don’t see a reason one can’t be faithful but take part in the journey of life.

NM- ok, moment of truth if someones a christian, they’re not religious

Me- whaaa??

NM- it’s not a religion. It’s a relationship.

Me- Ahh I see.

Nm- Do you really? or are you just trying to make me feel better.

Me- no no, I actually get it. But I guess the part I don’t get is why you can’t have that relationship and still live life the way you’d like to ya know?

NM- He’s God. He’s all knowing and stuff. He wants what’s best for us so when we do what he says, we’re happier. But that’s easier said than done.

Me- I don’t know if that quite answers my question. There’s just a lot I don’t understand.

NM- well um we’re inherently bad. People in general are bad. So when we do what we want it ends badly, that’s why we need god’s guidance.

Me- I don’t see it as bad personally. I see humans as having an insatiable curiosity for the world around us. Like things that end bad when we try it teach us a lesson, and helps us to learn self judgement, and self guidance.

NM- so how are you defining “bad, because that has a lot to do with it.

Me- to me bad is like murder. or harming someone intentionally.

NM- oh getting into intentions is fun because then you get into unintended consequences.

Me- What’s that gotta do with the way I define bad?

NM- Because if someone did something without intending something bad but was aware of the bad part. Would it still be wrong?

Me- That doesn’t make sense. If someone does something bad unintentionally, that doesn’t make them bad. There’s a difference between a bad decision and a bad person, and that’s where a person’s judgement comes in. If the the decision goes haywire, they must think of the result and the process that led them there and decide whether or not what they did was misguided. Like someone running a red light and killing someone in another car. They didn’t intend to kill someone, even though they know running a red is bad. The judgment was bad, but there erson could still be anyone, even you or I. That wouldn’t make us a bad person.

NM- wouldn’t it be easier to already know whats decisions are the right ones? But then we’re back to the definition of bad. Christianity says mankind is inherently evil. We have been since the fall of man. It’s God that makes us whole and good.

Me- it would, but we don’t know all of the answers. And part of life is to learn them along the way. That’s why we have judgment and rationalization. I was not born evil. Does that mean I don’t have thoughts of malice occasionally? No. But never have I carried out such actions with conviction. When I was born I wasn’t branded with the word Evil on me, nor the word in my head. We can choose to be evil, or to be good. That is up to us.

NM- We were born into sin. It’s like the human mind’s default setting is sin, we might be raised to be good in certain ways but we have a sinful nature. And pure rationalization without a standard of truth like God is not good.

Me- I have never seen Sin. I have only seen actions of all kinds. I was born into existence and that is all. The Human mind is an amazing thing of free will. It is wired to learn, and to think, to create, and analyze. I do have a standard of faith; in myself and my beliefs.

NM- I see what you’re saying but your worldview is built on a different view of god than mine I guess.

Me- I get yours as well. But the thing is, my view isn’t built on god at all.

And that’s it. My final thoughts are this:

What makes the Bible a better standard of truth than personal belief? Belief in God and belief in one’s own views are the same concept, are they not?

Been a while

Fri, 07 Oct 2011 05:01:56 -0400

i’m back baby! Time to blog like a madman.

I. Quit.

Thu, 30 Jun 2011 20:25:14 -0400

I. Quit.

Omfuckingod.

Mon, 14 Mar 2011 06:34:04 -0400

I’ve got plans for this year… if they work out , this will be the greatest year ever.

My Epiphany about god

Sun, 20 Feb 2011 05:25:51 -0500

So my brother and I were talking the other day and I had an Epiphany about God. Check this out:
God is a title, not a name.
Therefore God has no name.
Which means he is “he who cannot be named”
Which means his name must be Voldemort!!

kaycangel: I love coincidences.

Fri, 18 Feb 2011 14:59:19 -0500

kaycangel:

I love coincidences.